Losing Rationale
A dialogue between my depressed mind and me
Come my sweet; I thought you understood
Come crawl into bed with me
Cuddle me and hold me
Let me devour you because
Who else would?
Legs made useless because of venom
A mind wasting away
Fingertips made numb
It’s been a while now since you’ve left
You walk, you talk, you listen
You think and think and think
You run from me, but I am faster than you
You wage war in your head to get rid of me
But my sweet, you know I am a part of you.
I do not know the way to find you again,
nor do I know how even to begin trying.
Your absence is like the burning warmth of my bed
I fight it; I run from it,
I do everything in my power to get rid of it.
You leave our little cocoon.
You hurt me with your words,
You hurt me with your thoughts,
You hurt me with your actions,
But I will always stand by you because
Who else would?
I feel like I’m on the precipice of the limbo
I don’t want to jump
But do I have a choice?
I guide you through the wilderness of your thoughts
We fight many battles together
We lose them all because really, who needs to compete?
Come my sweet, crawl into bed with me
The emptiness of reality starts to seep into my head
The storm that was brewing is gone now
A blinding light engulfs me
But is it of happiness or everything burning around me?
We cuddle, we hold each other close
We devour each other because
Who else would?
As I write this continuing dialogue between us,
I am not entirely oblivious that I do not know who I am writing this for.
Is it a dialogue between us,
or of me shouting into the void and hoping for an answer back?